Sunday, June 10, 2007
i watch drama.
i think funny.
the guy's dad in the drama tell him.
"not doing anything.. and being satisfied with it.. it becomes a habit.."
then i think.
i look at myself,
and then i think again.
im actually doing the same thing.
lol. its really very dumb.
i got something on my mind, and i know i should just say it out.
but i dunno why i cant. not now.
maybe later.
but then again i ask myself,
when is later going to come?
january comes after december.
but when is later going to come?
i look at the sky.
got one bird fly.
i look at my own one.
cannot see my zipper zipped.
then i look at the sky again.
i see one twinkling star.
actually its not the star.
my right eye got eyeshit.
but then
i never give up.
i try to look at the sky again.
this time i saw it finally.
i feel damn alone.
feels cold also.
i wonder why.
since im fat.
why cold?
im really feeling bad.
i cant do anything.
i feel helpless.
im not asking for help.
so dun help me.
ive already asked for enough listening ears.
so thanx a lot.
but the rest still depends on me.
is the holidays a good chance?
i look at the clock.
i cant help noticing 5 o clock.
how would she react?
how i know?
then why u ask me?
thats the point i dunno so i ask u.
but i also dunno.
come we wonder together.
what if i get rejected?
then like that lor. then wad.
why u ask me again i asking u wad.
i ask u because i dunno.
but i also ask u because i dunno.
come we wonder together.
i should get it over and done with.
yeah u should.
why u say that?
because i got nothing better to say.
go and die.
then drop down the drain right?
eh how u know?
actually i dunno. i anyhow say one.
i see couple walking down the road.
they're holding hands.
im actually a little bit jealous that they are.
then the guy look back at me.
i dunno why he coming towards me.
he clench fist.
i think he thinks im looking at his gf.
oh shit.
i run.
i wonder how.
i wonder why.
yesterday u told me.
bout the blue blue sky.
and all that i can see.
is just the yellow lemon tree.
and i wonder.
i wonder.
sabishii ne..
sometimes i just wanna forget about it.
so troublesome.
must keep on thinking.
in the end i never do anything anyway.
so why bother.
but when i wanna forget about it.
POOP.
no that is not the sound of shit.
its whats happening around me.
something pushes me to her.
and then i think about it again.
how to tell?
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wakaranai.
no really i dun know how to.
seriously.
i dunno.
im hungry.
sigh.
9:42 PM
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